April 02, 2012

Well, there went any positive thinking

I was holding off on posting today because I was expecting a phone call from Dr. B's office with the results from my 7DPO progesterone test. Well, its now 4:20, their office closes in 10 minutes and when I tried calling a few minutes ago I got the nurse line voicemail. I hate having blood drawn on a Friday. I always end up waiting an eternity for the results. The woman at the lab even offered to enter my order as "same day results" since I showed up so early. She seemed sympathetic about the fact it was Friday. I knew I still wouldn't hear from Dr. B's office that day because the docs leave early on Fridays. But I certainly expected to hear something today!

I'm honestly ready to cry over this. Am I really as fragile as that? I have no reason to think this hasn't happened, but I HAVE to know that number! My body has dicked me over one too many times for me to trust it entirely. I have no symptoms anymore except for nipple tenderness (which I don't even notice unless I get goosebumps). It didn't work, I just know it didn't work...

I hate this.

UPDATE: Oh for heaven's sake! They just called me. Nice of them to wait until the dead last second (and only after I left a voice mail). At least it was good news: progesterone was 19.5 whatever-increment-they-measure-in. Clearly consistent with ovulation. And now I'll just slink away since I am obviously a crazy woman.

10 comments:

  1. Phew, so glad you finally got an answer. Your number sounds fab. I cannot stand it when they wait until the last minute to call!!

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    1. They oughta know that infertiles are desperately needy!

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  2. It always happens right after we complain about it on blogs, to others, etc! Glad you are happy with the number.

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  3. You are SO not crazy! I would feel the exact same way! And I agree, 19.5 is a FANTASTIC number! Are you taking progesterone supplements or anything, or did you body do that all on its own? Good job ovulating! :-)

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    1. no progesterone supplements and that's the best number I've ever gotten!

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    2. That's awesome! Go you! I am overall fertile, but still need progesterone cream to get numbers like that. So, that's awesome! (We're a MFI diagnosis.)

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  4. Ahhh! That is a crazy amount of time to wait! Glad to hear you had a good number thought :) :) :)

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  5. PCOS invariably results in a bit of crazy. Yeah for ovulation!!

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  6. I laughed when I got to the end of your post. Not at you, but only because I know that neurosis too well. Its always better to be proven wrong then proven right though- at least in situations like this :)

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    1. Good point - I guess I don't mind looking a little crazy if it means I was wrong and I *did* ovulate!

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