March 12, 2012

So Much Time, and so Little to Do!

Stop that. Reverse it. Much better.

Going out of town for a my conference tomorrow and of course my office has been insane all day. I've finally gotten a few minutes to catch my breath and collect my thoughts.

My HSG was today and thank GOD it went fine, there was no pain and my tubes are clear! So, now that we know that my uterus is fine and does its job, and my fallopian tubes are fine and do *their* jobs...::pointedly stares at ovaries:: I guess we have only one culprit left.

Both the Guru and Dr. B have been reviewing the labs as they come back and they are in agreement that I am a good candidate for ovarian drilling. That kind of scared me when he said it because what little I know of it...well it sounds scary. But he explained a lot to me (I *love* this practice, the doctors are amazingly smart and so good about explaining things!) and now I am more willing to at least consider it. I want to see what happens this cycle, see how I respond to the clomid, etc. They will try a stair-step approach if I'm not responding and give me Femara most likely. If I respond poorly to that too, then we know ovarian drilling is probably the smart thing to do.

Jesus Christ, *surgery*, just for the hope of getting pregnant...I feel like I'm crossing a line of no return. I will never be able to "fit in" with a regular mommy group because of the battle scars I will have from getting my take home baby. You just can't go back to happy la-la land after going through this shit. We know too much. I don't like playing the Pain Olympics with other IFers, but for some reason I have no problem playing it with "normals". Honey, you don't know the meaning of pain - I don't care if you did do a home birth with no meds.

So anyway, *so much* going on right now! And every time I go to Dr. B's office I get a slew of new information thrown at me. I won't be updating while I'm gone, and even worse, I'm sure I won't be keeping up with blogs I follow. Nobody get pregnant while I'm gone, okay?? I don't want to miss out on the congratulations! I'll be back Sunday, so feel free to POAS then ;-)

8 comments:

  1. Glad your HSG went so well! Mine was soo painful so I am glad you didn't have to go through that. It is crazy what we will do all for the sake of getting pregnant. You can join me with the battle scars. One day I will show my children mine and say "I did this all for you! Now go make your bed!" Never underestimate the power of holding something like that over their heads! JK...maybe...

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  2. Ovarian. DRILLING. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT? That is one of the scariest and cringe-worthy names of a surgery I think I've ever heard! I'm glad your doctors explained it to you, you sound very calm about it. In my head I see a drill, like a big oil rig. HA!

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  3. Glad you sailed through your HSG. You can check that off the list now. Indeed 'ovarian drilling' sounds intense. Perhaps they should rename it 'ovarian spa day' would be better, no? Regardless, it sounds like there is a plan. Plans are good yo.

    Enjoy your conference. Enjoy a few days away. Don't forget to indulge in a few drinks while you still can!

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  4. I hear you. These battle scars go deep and the separation between ferile/infertile feels like a yawning chasm that just grows wider every day. I'm glad your HSG showed that things were all clear.

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  5. Yeah for clear tubes! Get into gear, ovaries!

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  6. Glad your HSG went so well! I'm with everyone else. What the HELL is ovarian drilling?! I think I've heard of it before but the sound of the name puts my teeth on edge.

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  7. Glad things went well and you have a goal going forward! Hope your enjoying a little time away!

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  8. Hooray for an easy HSG and clear tubes! That's great. I admit I don't exactly know what ovarian drilling is, but I hear you on not wanting to do surgery. I totally play the Pain Olympics w/ fertiles, too! I hope your conference went well.

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