November 14, 2012

*tap tap* Is this thing on?

Well hello there!

So....what's new?

Actually I *know* what's new with all of you because I have been reading your blogs which are regularly updated because you guys don't suck. I suck because I've been out of it for almost a month Cross my heart, I have been reading, thinking, and praying about all of you! Sometimes I want to leave a comment, but no sufficient words come to me. That is an awful feeling for me, I am *never* at a loss for words.

I won't lie though, having big things other than infertility to occupy my time and mental energy has been just a huge HUGE relief. I didn't even make a face OR inwardly scream when I found out the pregnant girl in my bible study group is carrying multiples. I actually felt bad for her that she is having a high risk pregnancy and committed to praying extra for her.

The house is big and wonderful and ever so slowly coming together and becoming ours. There are dozens of projects I would love to do over the course of our ownership, and hey - if we don't have children I would probably have the time to actually get most of them done. My baby nephew is my new favorite human being. I took a week off work to spend with my sister and my nephews and it was *awesome*. Hours and hours of holding my baby Bradley bear and marveling at how smart and creative Alex is (Alex being the older brother who is 8, almost 9). I am seriously the luckiest aunt in the world.

Taking a break has so far been great for me. I have enough self-esteem problems without throwing my inability to bear children into the mix *every* *single* *day*. I've been dealing with some kind of allergic reaction on my skin all year and I FINALLY think we figured out the culprit: I am allergic to normal laundry detergents and softeners. So I bought all new "Free and Gentle" or whatever detergents and such, spent a whole weekend washing every scrap of clothing I own, and am experiencing exponentially less discomfort. I would really like it if by Christmas I didn't look like a leper anymore. I would also love to shave my legs finally.

Okay, so there's my update. I promise I am keeping up with all of you and I will try to find more things to talk about while I chill from TTC!


  1. I know a lot of people that can't use standard detergent! I'm glad you've found the culprit. Skin problems are frustrating!

  2. I'm on Day 1 of my first break in a LOOOONG time and man does it feel good. :) Well, by "break" I mean "trying naturally" I guess... but let's be honest, that's not gonna happen, so I'm not really thinking about it. Excited to just enjoy the holidays and let others' pregnancy announcements roll off my back. Welcome back to the blogosphere!

  3. Welcome back! Sounds like you're in a great space right now. That's wonderful. My skin freaks out with laundry detergent and fabric softeners too! I've been making my own for years and it's awesome.

  4. Hello! I'm glad you found the cause of your skin irritation. Allergies and sensitivities are so annoying :) Oh, and I also found that breaks from TTC did wonders for my mood. I'm glad this time off is helping you regroup!